Broken on the inside

I’ll pretend to be happy
but only for a little while.
I’ll laugh and say every thing’s super
but only for a little while.
I’ll hold it all inside
and I’ll pretend to smile.
But only until that day
which will be here in a little while.
No matter what it will always hurt
everyday growing worse and worse.
No one loves me for long
and that is my curse.
I’m waiting for the time to come
when I will be OK.
And I think it’s almost here
that fateful day.
They’ll understand why they didn’t know me
they’ll know why I died.
No matter how happy I always looked
I was broken on the inside.
So I’ll get it over with
and when I’m gone
I hope he’ll think
”i miss her."
”I’ve missed her all along.”