You left me broken,
All on my own,
I had no-one to call.
My heart was in piece’s,
My tears streamed freely,
To lose someone I love.
I’ve never felt so alone,
And so broken up all around.
You use to make me smile,
Now all I do is frown.
I scrubbed my body hard,
To get your touch off my skin.
I drank poison every time
I thought of you,
To get your taste out of my system.
My heart, body and soul died the day you betrayed me...
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Promises made
Yesterday’s goals,
dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes,
blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne;
Love’s history.
Futures crumble when doubt appears.
No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain,
partitioned.
Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured.
Apologies made,
never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought -
Must walk into the night softly.
One wish,
only to be released.
Granted -
now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme,
love’s deceased.
When promises made . . . were broken.
dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes,
blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne;
Love’s history.
Futures crumble when doubt appears.
No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain,
partitioned.
Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured.
Apologies made,
never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought -
Must walk into the night softly.
One wish,
only to be released.
Granted -
now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme,
love’s deceased.
When promises made . . . were broken.
I learn to be strong
Words of wisdom come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.
With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.
I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.
With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure,
slowly dies.
While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.
Love hurts . . .
That’s what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.
So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.
Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I’ve learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.
With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.
I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.
With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure,
slowly dies.
While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.
Love hurts . . .
That’s what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.
So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.
Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I’ve learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.
Nights without you
Sleepless, dreamless, hopeless nights,
I wish for you to come.
To fill my eyes with tears of happiness,
and take away this glum.
I wish for you to put your hands around me,
and make me cozy and warm,
and fill my stomach with butterflies and bees,
that so gently swarm.
I wish for you to bring me joy,
when everything seems so bad,
and take me out of this unhappy mood,
that makes me feel so sad.
I wish for you to give me back the memories
that brightened up my heart,
and let us share more of them,
because I do not understand
why we ever did part.
I wish for everything to be as it was,
having soft sleeps filled with dreams and hope tonight,
so that for every coming day there is a shine of light.
Does it have to end like this?
For I’m not back in your arms,
my dreams still torn,
my heart still empty,
my life with no happiness,
my day with no future without you.
I wish for you to come.
To fill my eyes with tears of happiness,
and take away this glum.
I wish for you to put your hands around me,
and make me cozy and warm,
and fill my stomach with butterflies and bees,
that so gently swarm.
I wish for you to bring me joy,
when everything seems so bad,
and take me out of this unhappy mood,
that makes me feel so sad.
I wish for you to give me back the memories
that brightened up my heart,
and let us share more of them,
because I do not understand
why we ever did part.
I wish for everything to be as it was,
having soft sleeps filled with dreams and hope tonight,
so that for every coming day there is a shine of light.
Does it have to end like this?
For I’m not back in your arms,
my dreams still torn,
my heart still empty,
my life with no happiness,
my day with no future without you.
Whispers
The one thing I’ve learned about happiness
It will never last pretending you’re not you.
Somehow, someway the truth will arise
And all that you hide will show through.
Sooner or later, one way or another
Something in your life seems wrong.
You go to bed unhappy and awake the same
Repeating life’s mistakes too long.
One day, to yourself, you begin to question
“Is this who I am and wish to be”?
How will I choose to live the rest of my life
Till the angle of death comes for me?
Most people wish to be at peace with God,
Oneself, and those we love.
Frequently taking a look at our past
It will never last pretending you’re not you.
Somehow, someway the truth will arise
And all that you hide will show through.
Sooner or later, one way or another
Something in your life seems wrong.
You go to bed unhappy and awake the same
Repeating life’s mistakes too long.
One day, to yourself, you begin to question
“Is this who I am and wish to be”?
How will I choose to live the rest of my life
Till the angle of death comes for me?
Most people wish to be at peace with God,
Oneself, and those we love.
Frequently taking a look at our past
Friends
We all have that special friend
who listens to our
problems and difficulties.
Who makes life a bit
easy by just being there
Reaching out
Sharing doubt
When life gets you down
Having that special bond
between friends
A bond that time
cannot break.
We all need someone
To talk to in our life,
A friend to whom we run
In times of stress or strife
When I am angry,
you are there to sooth
my aggression.
And when I am sad,
you are there to cheer me up.
For everything
and all that you do,
I want you to know
I’ll do the same for you.
You’ve been a true friend
I hope you stay
I would be so very empty
If you ever went away
who listens to our
problems and difficulties.
Who makes life a bit
easy by just being there
Reaching out
Sharing doubt
When life gets you down
Having that special bond
between friends
A bond that time
cannot break.
We all need someone
To talk to in our life,
A friend to whom we run
In times of stress or strife
When I am angry,
you are there to sooth
my aggression.
And when I am sad,
you are there to cheer me up.
For everything
and all that you do,
I want you to know
I’ll do the same for you.
You’ve been a true friend
I hope you stay
I would be so very empty
If you ever went away
A dream come true
Feelings that once were hidden
Are now expressed to you.
Days that once were stormy
Are now the brightest blue.
Times that once were lonely
Are now filled with pleasure.
All that once was mine alone
Are now things we both treasure.
Nights that once were cold
Are now comforting and warm.
Fears that once were very real
Are now gone with the storm.
A heart that once was broken
Can now finally mend.
A person once alone in life
Can now call you a friend.
Dreams that once were longed for
Are now all coming true.
The love I once thought was gone
I have now and forever in you.
Are now expressed to you.
Days that once were stormy
Are now the brightest blue.
Times that once were lonely
Are now filled with pleasure.
All that once was mine alone
Are now things we both treasure.
Nights that once were cold
Are now comforting and warm.
Fears that once were very real
Are now gone with the storm.
A heart that once was broken
Can now finally mend.
A person once alone in life
Can now call you a friend.
Dreams that once were longed for
Are now all coming true.
The love I once thought was gone
I have now and forever in you.
A love like no other
I never felt a love
Like this before
It’s a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for
A love with friendship
Humour and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part
A love that makes you smile
From ear to ear
A love that is joyful
Without any fear
A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears,
Pain, or doubt
A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you...
Like this before
It’s a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for
A love with friendship
Humour and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part
A love that makes you smile
From ear to ear
A love that is joyful
Without any fear
A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears,
Pain, or doubt
A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you...
True love
You came into my life unexpectedly,
and everything took a turn for the better.
Your warm eyes, your laugh,
the sincere way you speak,
and the kindness you showed me,
all became a part of my life.
As you unfolded yourself to me,
I discovered more and more beauty.
I have never seen so much
gentleness in one person.
Without even knowing it,
you were slowly making a place
for yourself in my heart.
It used to seem so hard at times
to feel so close in a relationship.
But it’s so easy to feel close to you.
I can’t tell you how nice that feels.
I realize now that I had never known
what it meant to be loved
until I was loved by you.
and everything took a turn for the better.
Your warm eyes, your laugh,
the sincere way you speak,
and the kindness you showed me,
all became a part of my life.
As you unfolded yourself to me,
I discovered more and more beauty.
I have never seen so much
gentleness in one person.
Without even knowing it,
you were slowly making a place
for yourself in my heart.
It used to seem so hard at times
to feel so close in a relationship.
But it’s so easy to feel close to you.
I can’t tell you how nice that feels.
I realize now that I had never known
what it meant to be loved
until I was loved by you.
Red rose
Our love is that of a red rose
Whose splendor rises as the sun shows its face,
Whose petals expand further and richer
Whispering secrets of happiness and affection.
And even though with the fall of dusk
All contentment is swept away,
And the rose’s petals unite as one
Reflecting any light that may endeavor to shine through,
The sun will always rise
And the rose’s petals will eternally broaden
Until they fully blossom into a stunning creation.
Our love is that of a red rose
Possessing a few imperfections
That may cause evanescent wounds,
But the internal radiance
That will everlastingly bestow healing and comfort.
Whose splendor rises as the sun shows its face,
Whose petals expand further and richer
Whispering secrets of happiness and affection.
And even though with the fall of dusk
All contentment is swept away,
And the rose’s petals unite as one
Reflecting any light that may endeavor to shine through,
The sun will always rise
And the rose’s petals will eternally broaden
Until they fully blossom into a stunning creation.
Our love is that of a red rose
Possessing a few imperfections
That may cause evanescent wounds,
But the internal radiance
That will everlastingly bestow healing and comfort.
A rose that once stood alone
A solitary rose grew in the darkest corner of the garden
Surrounded by many others
Yet remained alone
Time passed and trials came and went
One dealt a severe blow
And the rose began to wilt and wither
Forgotten...Then... as if by a miracle...
There came a soft and gentle breeze
Followed by a ray of light
As all the other roses fell into darkness
The solitary rose began to shine
Shining with a special light...
And watered by a gentle cascade...
A cascade of love
A cascade of selfless affection
”I do... not now but forever...”
Said the rose to the sunlight
And there they remain
A rose in full bloom
With her sunshine smiling down on her...
You are my sunshine,
my life, my very soul
And I your rose blooming in the light of your love.
Surrounded by many others
Yet remained alone
Time passed and trials came and went
One dealt a severe blow
And the rose began to wilt and wither
Forgotten...Then... as if by a miracle...
There came a soft and gentle breeze
Followed by a ray of light
As all the other roses fell into darkness
The solitary rose began to shine
Shining with a special light...
And watered by a gentle cascade...
A cascade of love
A cascade of selfless affection
”I do... not now but forever...”
Said the rose to the sunlight
And there they remain
A rose in full bloom
With her sunshine smiling down on her...
You are my sunshine,
my life, my very soul
And I your rose blooming in the light of your love.
I love you
Just three little words
don’t seem like enough
for someone whose smile
still brightens my day,
whose touch can make me forget
the rest of the world.
They don’t seem like enough
for someone who’s always been there
to celebrate with me
when everything goes my way
and to hold my hand
when my whole world
seems to fall apart.
But even though
“I Love You”
can’t express the depth
of my feelings for you.
I hope you know what’s in my heart.
Because loving you
means more to me
than anything in the world
and it always will.
don’t seem like enough
for someone whose smile
still brightens my day,
whose touch can make me forget
the rest of the world.
They don’t seem like enough
for someone who’s always been there
to celebrate with me
when everything goes my way
and to hold my hand
when my whole world
seems to fall apart.
But even though
“I Love You”
can’t express the depth
of my feelings for you.
I hope you know what’s in my heart.
Because loving you
means more to me
than anything in the world
and it always will.
Love you
I love you like I love a day
when everything goes right
I love you like I love to lay
and watch the stars at night
I love you like I love the rain
its lustful calm embrace
I love you like I love to laugh
until it hurts my face
I love you like I love to drive
with no real destination
I love you like I love the thrill
of pure infatuation
But most of all I love you like
I love a cherished friend
Who holds me tight,dries my tears
and loves me to the end
when everything goes right
I love you like I love to lay
and watch the stars at night
I love you like I love the rain
its lustful calm embrace
I love you like I love to laugh
until it hurts my face
I love you like I love to drive
with no real destination
I love you like I love the thrill
of pure infatuation
But most of all I love you like
I love a cherished friend
Who holds me tight,dries my tears
and loves me to the end
You walked lightly
You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I don’t know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
You’re passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.
Captivating and lovely to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I don’t know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
You’re passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.
Never thought
I never thought I would fall in love again
I thought my heart was safe & sharp
I wasn’t looking for you anymore
Everyone I had met was so wrong.
I hadn’t a clue when I saw you that day,
That you would walk into my heart.
I was more surprised in the following weeks
It would be a new beginning, a new start.
You are truly my heart’s desire
I’ve known this for more than a year
I may have written useless poems in the past,
I’ve cried definitely, my share of tears.
When our lips first met, it sealed out fate.
We kissed for hours on end.
I didn’t want to leave the safety of your arms
I knew that day, I’d found my soul, my best friend.
I love you with all my heart
I know you love me as I do you
We will have our memories, they have kept us warm
as we made our new memories fresh & new.
When I take your name, when we wed
I will wear it proudly for I m yours forever more.
We will begin the last journey of love together,
Together hand in hand, till we reach that golden shore.
I thought my heart was safe & sharp
I wasn’t looking for you anymore
Everyone I had met was so wrong.
I hadn’t a clue when I saw you that day,
That you would walk into my heart.
I was more surprised in the following weeks
It would be a new beginning, a new start.
You are truly my heart’s desire
I’ve known this for more than a year
I may have written useless poems in the past,
I’ve cried definitely, my share of tears.
When our lips first met, it sealed out fate.
We kissed for hours on end.
I didn’t want to leave the safety of your arms
I knew that day, I’d found my soul, my best friend.
I love you with all my heart
I know you love me as I do you
We will have our memories, they have kept us warm
as we made our new memories fresh & new.
When I take your name, when we wed
I will wear it proudly for I m yours forever more.
We will begin the last journey of love together,
Together hand in hand, till we reach that golden shore.
When
When you asked me to marry you
I thought you would change
I thought you loved me enough to at least try,
Funny how life can be so strange
All the years we were together
All those nights I waited for you to come home
The sleepless nights, filled with dread,
While you were free to roam.
When you walked out over 2 yrs ago,
I wasn’t hurt or disappointed at you
When you came back, looking tired & warm
I had no sympathy for you, none I can recall.
I thought you would change
I thought you loved me enough to at least try,
Funny how life can be so strange
All the years we were together
All those nights I waited for you to come home
The sleepless nights, filled with dread,
While you were free to roam.
When you walked out over 2 yrs ago,
I wasn’t hurt or disappointed at you
When you came back, looking tired & warm
I had no sympathy for you, none I can recall.
Goodbii
As I walked into the school
People were watching us
But I didn’t notice now
I walked over to you
I touched your sweet face
I tried to cry, but the tears
they were always there.
I tasted the tears of anger & sorrow ness,
I tried to tell myself it was all a bad dream
But then I realized that dreams
aren’t supposed to hurt you.
As I leave ever,I whispered into your ears
I love you.
Then I put the flowers on the casket,
And I quietly walked out saying
Good bye.
People were watching us
But I didn’t notice now
I walked over to you
I touched your sweet face
I tried to cry, but the tears
they were always there.
I tasted the tears of anger & sorrow ness,
I tried to tell myself it was all a bad dream
But then I realized that dreams
aren’t supposed to hurt you.
As I leave ever,I whispered into your ears
I love you.
Then I put the flowers on the casket,
And I quietly walked out saying
Good bye.
Two-way mirror
A room to two way mirrors is my fate,
with strangers looking at me,
dissecting my body & mind
with their cold eyes
and even colder words
Forced to deal with their cynical
views of those that surround me
they entrap me in their rocks
of self-consciousness
But despite the empty stares
and demeaningly harsh words,
I untangle myself from their
webs of destroyed dreams
then, break the two-way mirrors
they watch my every move with.
I didn’t re receive a spider bite,
or a cut from the broken glass.
Instead a world of refugees like me
with strangers looking at me,
dissecting my body & mind
with their cold eyes
and even colder words
Forced to deal with their cynical
views of those that surround me
they entrap me in their rocks
of self-consciousness
But despite the empty stares
and demeaningly harsh words,
I untangle myself from their
webs of destroyed dreams
then, break the two-way mirrors
they watch my every move with.
I didn’t re receive a spider bite,
or a cut from the broken glass.
Instead a world of refugees like me
Nothing girl
Maybe I wear baggies
and white socks with flip-flops
maybe I don’t like listening to rave
and I’m not on the social mountain tops
maybe I don’t care a lot of things
that makes our world twist.
maybe you look at me I think,
Gee, what a nothing girl
Maybe, I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away.
maybe you don’t understand this
and that’s why you can’t see,
if this makes me a nothing girl,
hey, that’s okay with me.
The world makes you believe
your personality mustn’t be detected
your face must be picture perfect
and wear clothes just the best to be accepted
Maybe I look at you
and feel sorry that you’re blind
robots you have become,
yourself you’ll never find.
God made you, as well as me
this means I am something
this world is a liar
and if I must be a nothing
for you to see it, then so be it!
and white socks with flip-flops
maybe I don’t like listening to rave
and I’m not on the social mountain tops
maybe I don’t care a lot of things
that makes our world twist.
maybe you look at me I think,
Gee, what a nothing girl
Maybe, I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away.
maybe you don’t understand this
and that’s why you can’t see,
if this makes me a nothing girl,
hey, that’s okay with me.
The world makes you believe
your personality mustn’t be detected
your face must be picture perfect
and wear clothes just the best to be accepted
Maybe I look at you
and feel sorry that you’re blind
robots you have become,
yourself you’ll never find.
God made you, as well as me
this means I am something
this world is a liar
and if I must be a nothing
for you to see it, then so be it!
Colours of God
There is always a calmness before the storm
The clouds are all darkened as they form
Thundering skies across the land
Untold signs are washed from the sand
It becomes all quiet & not a sound is heard
You can listen for voices but you
hear not a word
Then like some magical wonder from above
The angels begin to cry & send down their love
Their tears are falling for you & for me
To touch us all & to set us all free
They send down their love with such
beauty & grace
I lift up my head & let the tears
touch my face
Washing our souls from the hurt that
we feel
Washing our souls from the pain that
is real
And when they have finished
their crying all done
Those clouded skies depart to bring
out the sun.
And if you watch closely and look way high
You will see a rainbow of colors
appear in the sky
Colors of joy that are warm & not cold
God’s given promise for us to hold.
The clouds are all darkened as they form
Thundering skies across the land
Untold signs are washed from the sand
It becomes all quiet & not a sound is heard
You can listen for voices but you
hear not a word
Then like some magical wonder from above
The angels begin to cry & send down their love
Their tears are falling for you & for me
To touch us all & to set us all free
They send down their love with such
beauty & grace
I lift up my head & let the tears
touch my face
Washing our souls from the hurt that
we feel
Washing our souls from the pain that
is real
And when they have finished
their crying all done
Those clouded skies depart to bring
out the sun.
And if you watch closely and look way high
You will see a rainbow of colors
appear in the sky
Colors of joy that are warm & not cold
God’s given promise for us to hold.
My mentor
I kind of realized that you are one
Person really close to me about whom
I’ve not written an acknowledgement, so
this one is for you…
That girl who sat on the last desk
‘Did she speak?’,
a ‘no’ was my guess
Well I get an answer after not long
And definitely, my guess was wrong.
My world in my eyes easy scattered
My feelings, my hopes were all battered
She was the one who got them together
Had it not been her, it would have been never.
I owe to her all my smiles, my pleasures
There is no way I can thank her,not in any measure..
Now she is a shoulder to cry
My only inspiration to try
There is one truth I can never defy
On her eyes closed, I can rely
She is my unbounded hopes
She is of fun an endless scope
I know I trouble her day & night
And I’m very well aware that it’s not right
But I trouble her to keep & smile
To keep my heart from breaking, that
heart is fragile…
It seems I know her for a million years
She is one to my heart so near.
Person really close to me about whom
I’ve not written an acknowledgement, so
this one is for you…
That girl who sat on the last desk
‘Did she speak?’,
a ‘no’ was my guess
Well I get an answer after not long
And definitely, my guess was wrong.
My world in my eyes easy scattered
My feelings, my hopes were all battered
She was the one who got them together
Had it not been her, it would have been never.
I owe to her all my smiles, my pleasures
There is no way I can thank her,not in any measure..
Now she is a shoulder to cry
My only inspiration to try
There is one truth I can never defy
On her eyes closed, I can rely
She is my unbounded hopes
She is of fun an endless scope
I know I trouble her day & night
And I’m very well aware that it’s not right
But I trouble her to keep & smile
To keep my heart from breaking, that
heart is fragile…
It seems I know her for a million years
She is one to my heart so near.
Don't
The face of the guy, right in front
Who is he?
His name my memory hunts
He looks so familiar
Someone who to my heart is near
Looks in his eyes one so different
What made him on his stand so adamant
The now, the then has so damn changed
If he had to leave, why my heart did he tame.
The look on his face today
Tells me he hasn’t changed any way
The side glances, that unmindedly meet
Tell me, no me he hasn’t & can’t cheat.
The way he looked back at me.
My heart rejoiced, and the change I could see
Yes the change in the name of the relationship
It’s love but show that love is sick.
Don’t look at me like that, my heart’s pounding
Don’t give me those side glances.
Your glances are killing
I know today what you meant when
you said goodbye
It meant – wait till we can get back
and give it a better try
Who is he?
His name my memory hunts
He looks so familiar
Someone who to my heart is near
Looks in his eyes one so different
What made him on his stand so adamant
The now, the then has so damn changed
If he had to leave, why my heart did he tame.
The look on his face today
Tells me he hasn’t changed any way
The side glances, that unmindedly meet
Tell me, no me he hasn’t & can’t cheat.
The way he looked back at me.
My heart rejoiced, and the change I could see
Yes the change in the name of the relationship
It’s love but show that love is sick.
Don’t look at me like that, my heart’s pounding
Don’t give me those side glances.
Your glances are killing
I know today what you meant when
you said goodbye
It meant – wait till we can get back
and give it a better try
Long ago
Long ago in the mud
I put a seed, cause I must
But what as a child
I didn’t realize
Was that trees are not first flowers
But even thorns that,
You, can char.
Friends, are to mend
Shoulders to cry they are to lend
But that’s not the ease
Nobody today has a single face
On one front, they prompt to shane
But in their hearts, they don’t even care.
Once they get someone to hold
Towards others, they turn cold.
No more In life or friends,
I put my faith.
Live for yourself –
It has been rightly said
I put a seed, cause I must
But what as a child
I didn’t realize
Was that trees are not first flowers
But even thorns that,
You, can char.
Friends, are to mend
Shoulders to cry they are to lend
But that’s not the ease
Nobody today has a single face
On one front, they prompt to shane
But in their hearts, they don’t even care.
Once they get someone to hold
Towards others, they turn cold.
No more In life or friends,
I put my faith.
Live for yourself –
It has been rightly said
Can't
Today my heart is beating at a pace not normal
The relationship we share has changed,
It has become much more normal
I’m so lonely, hence nothing to do.
So called u up, wanted to talk to you
U couldn’t even say a word of sympathy
The relationship is no more, not even worthy
I can’t even try, to come to you
The relationship we share has changed,
It has become much more normal
I’m so lonely, hence nothing to do.
So called u up, wanted to talk to you
U couldn’t even say a word of sympathy
The relationship is no more, not even worthy
I can’t even try, to come to you
My love
When never I refused you anything
How could I refuse you then
I always gave you what you
Wanted at your slightest pring.
Now with your indecision I can’t blend.
My heart pounds, every time you smile
Bout your smile has made it fragile
It was your smile that used to thrill
Now it’s the same smile that
Me every moment kills.
I can’t see you with anybody
You are now & forever just mine
You I have so closely studied
That I can tell you, without
me you can never be fine.
I can bet, you are not fine today.
But there’s nobody to whom this you can say.
Come back & hold this hand when you want.
My love for you is cent percent
True, nothing that I can flaunt.
How could I refuse you then
I always gave you what you
Wanted at your slightest pring.
Now with your indecision I can’t blend.
My heart pounds, every time you smile
Bout your smile has made it fragile
It was your smile that used to thrill
Now it’s the same smile that
Me every moment kills.
I can’t see you with anybody
You are now & forever just mine
You I have so closely studied
That I can tell you, without
me you can never be fine.
I can bet, you are not fine today.
But there’s nobody to whom this you can say.
Come back & hold this hand when you want.
My love for you is cent percent
True, nothing that I can flaunt.
Why did I?
Greener pastures every side
Then why this black patch I have to hide
The black patch of my lonely shame
The guilt in me for my ruthless fame
The game I played on a friendship sweet
& In the process shattered his dream
Got him to lose the love of his life
Now again its me who can’t see his plight
Why did I play this game so bad
Now it’s because of me that he’s so sad.
Then why this black patch I have to hide
The black patch of my lonely shame
The guilt in me for my ruthless fame
The game I played on a friendship sweet
& In the process shattered his dream
Got him to lose the love of his life
Now again its me who can’t see his plight
Why did I play this game so bad
Now it’s because of me that he’s so sad.
Just
Yesterday night
After a day spent right
I lay down to sleep
But you, from nowhere, in my
Mind did creep
From no where? Yes…..
Your thought was nowhere in sight
I might have studied,
Chances were bright
But then, there was sudden guh of tears
Uncalmed, baseless fears
Why so insecure was I
‘Cause to be happy I had tried
In spite of the fact that I can
Smile
Why my grins do I pile ?
I want you to know
have you, I don’t
You are a friend, dear to my heart
Hurt you I can’t, with life don’t part.
I know I have my responsibilities
As a friend, I have my duties
But realize, I’m just a friend
In the previous relation who can’t again
blend
I’m not forgetting you
not even taking you out of my mind
But you & Me chances are very few
I love someone – u let me remind.
Don’t haunt me with the past
Memories are sickening
Move on with life, you’ll find your love at last
I was neither the end nor the beginning
I was just the one to break your heart.
After a day spent right
I lay down to sleep
But you, from nowhere, in my
Mind did creep
From no where? Yes…..
Your thought was nowhere in sight
I might have studied,
Chances were bright
But then, there was sudden guh of tears
Uncalmed, baseless fears
Why so insecure was I
‘Cause to be happy I had tried
In spite of the fact that I can
Smile
Why my grins do I pile ?
I want you to know
have you, I don’t
You are a friend, dear to my heart
Hurt you I can’t, with life don’t part.
I know I have my responsibilities
As a friend, I have my duties
But realize, I’m just a friend
In the previous relation who can’t again
blend
I’m not forgetting you
not even taking you out of my mind
But you & Me chances are very few
I love someone – u let me remind.
Don’t haunt me with the past
Memories are sickening
Move on with life, you’ll find your love at last
I was neither the end nor the beginning
I was just the one to break your heart.
The moment
The Moment I think of you
Tears weld from my eyes
Of my love for you
I’m paying this price.
People look at my eyes tell
That someone deep in my heart dwells
He’s the one whose absence kills
Everyone knows his stature no one can fill
I named my future to him
But his exit, left me with hopes dim
Just in memories, now I live
About his loss, is all I crib.
U know I’m dying every second
My sorry condition they cannot mend
The one whose name is all in my heart
Is the only one who can’t see, that
he’s shattered me apart!
Your picture in a frame I hold
My love won’t fade, all have been told.
I know, am sure, you’ll come back to me
I know you don’t wanna say, but my
plight you can feel.
Tears weld from my eyes
Of my love for you
I’m paying this price.
People look at my eyes tell
That someone deep in my heart dwells
He’s the one whose absence kills
Everyone knows his stature no one can fill
I named my future to him
But his exit, left me with hopes dim
Just in memories, now I live
About his loss, is all I crib.
U know I’m dying every second
My sorry condition they cannot mend
The one whose name is all in my heart
Is the only one who can’t see, that
he’s shattered me apart!
Your picture in a frame I hold
My love won’t fade, all have been told.
I know, am sure, you’ll come back to me
I know you don’t wanna say, but my
plight you can feel.
Tell me why?
As a child I was taught to trust
I was told making friends is must
I was taught to love & care
With friends I was asked to share
I was shown all the beauty of life
I was given aims for which to strive
With love & lament I was reared
I say again, I was asked to love, trust
and care.
But why wasn’t I shown the dark side
Not told that in hurting other people take pride
Why wasn’t I told that actually no one dares
No one actually for a grieving one, cares.
Why wasn’t I taught that friends are a drama
Why wasn’t I told about ceaser Brutus but only
krishnaa & sudhama
Why wasn’t I told that trust is also shattered.
Why talk about rivers & not deserts ?
I was told making friends is must
I was taught to love & care
With friends I was asked to share
I was shown all the beauty of life
I was given aims for which to strive
With love & lament I was reared
I say again, I was asked to love, trust
and care.
But why wasn’t I shown the dark side
Not told that in hurting other people take pride
Why wasn’t I told that actually no one dares
No one actually for a grieving one, cares.
Why wasn’t I taught that friends are a drama
Why wasn’t I told about ceaser Brutus but only
krishnaa & sudhama
Why wasn’t I told that trust is also shattered.
Why talk about rivers & not deserts ?
You forgive me and i will forgive you
U Forgive me 4 liking you 2 much
& I’ll forgive u 4 not liking me enough
U forgive me 4 missing u & I will
Forgive u for being so cold.
U forgive me 4 the loud raising of
my heart & I’ll forgive u for hating me.
U forgive me 4 playing your game &
I’ll forgive u for playing with my emotions.
U forgive me for raising u up &
I’ll forgive u for not noticing me.
U forgive me for waiting to be with u
& I’ll forgive u for avoiding me.
U forgive me having hopes & dreams
& I’ll forgive u for crushing them.
U forgive me for being pathetic
I’ll forgive u for taking rewantages
of it.
U forgiving me 4 not being able
To let you go & I’ll forgive u
4 never having lacked on.
& I’ll forgive u 4 not liking me enough
U forgive me 4 missing u & I will
Forgive u for being so cold.
U forgive me 4 the loud raising of
my heart & I’ll forgive u for hating me.
U forgive me 4 playing your game &
I’ll forgive u for playing with my emotions.
U forgive me for raising u up &
I’ll forgive u for not noticing me.
U forgive me for waiting to be with u
& I’ll forgive u for avoiding me.
U forgive me having hopes & dreams
& I’ll forgive u for crushing them.
U forgive me for being pathetic
I’ll forgive u for taking rewantages
of it.
U forgiving me 4 not being able
To let you go & I’ll forgive u
4 never having lacked on.
What have you done?
No one, but me, the consequences knows
Where has my peace of mind gone?
It’s with you, that’s the way things show
I’ve lost my sleep
The entire day is now a dream
You being a major part of it
All my days have become a gnt
Not a wink hidhe past fortnight
Shows that someone’s touched
My heart with all his might
He’s taken the place of food & of sleep
It’s only, him, whom I remember
When I eat, when I breathe
He’s there in my every breath
No one can part us now, it’s
only death
Oh! I wanna sleep, give me
your lap
Just nurture me with your
Fingers till I take a small nap.
Where has my peace of mind gone?
It’s with you, that’s the way things show
I’ve lost my sleep
The entire day is now a dream
You being a major part of it
All my days have become a gnt
Not a wink hidhe past fortnight
Shows that someone’s touched
My heart with all his might
He’s taken the place of food & of sleep
It’s only, him, whom I remember
When I eat, when I breathe
He’s there in my every breath
No one can part us now, it’s
only death
Oh! I wanna sleep, give me
your lap
Just nurture me with your
Fingers till I take a small nap.
Me
It’s myself, me & only me
Now I’m all alone, as far as you can see
Don’t give me any company
People shall unnecessarily balance you with reasons many.
God knows why even these few months?
Now for solace in death, my life hunts
It was these few days, I wanted to
spend with him
It was with him, I wanted to reach my
eyes end dim
Now that him I can never get
Now that our love has with seldom met
All I wish, these few months could
fly as a day
‘Cause without him no long I can stay.
The pain is intolerable again
The hurt & agony has made me insane
But all I can do is hide it from him
Because all I want him to do is smile & grin.
He should be 1st to say- Good that she’s no more
She was the bloody one to make
My life hellish & bore
That would be the time, I’ll happily smile
He shall always be happy, but I
Would home walked away
More than a million miles
If, even, I was to live, I wouldn’t
Ask for him
Will this *** I even forget,
Chances are very dim.
Who can forget the day we stood so close
That was when I didn’t fall
In love but rose
The way he held my hand
All the time, when by my side
He maintained his stand.
When all the intimacy grew
Where has that time gone, what
Has made is screw.
Now I’m all alone, as far as you can see
Don’t give me any company
People shall unnecessarily balance you with reasons many.
God knows why even these few months?
Now for solace in death, my life hunts
It was these few days, I wanted to
spend with him
It was with him, I wanted to reach my
eyes end dim
Now that him I can never get
Now that our love has with seldom met
All I wish, these few months could
fly as a day
‘Cause without him no long I can stay.
The pain is intolerable again
The hurt & agony has made me insane
But all I can do is hide it from him
Because all I want him to do is smile & grin.
He should be 1st to say- Good that she’s no more
She was the bloody one to make
My life hellish & bore
That would be the time, I’ll happily smile
He shall always be happy, but I
Would home walked away
More than a million miles
If, even, I was to live, I wouldn’t
Ask for him
Will this *** I even forget,
Chances are very dim.
Who can forget the day we stood so close
That was when I didn’t fall
In love but rose
The way he held my hand
All the time, when by my side
He maintained his stand.
When all the intimacy grew
Where has that time gone, what
Has made is screw.
Need him
When yesterday night I set up
my sleep
I was eyes awake but still in
slumber deep
Tears weld from my eyes
Yet no one hear my cry
People who claimed to be close
To stay far apart chose
I was so lonely, I was so hurt
Even the tears, my vision blurred.
My expression I myself couldn’t read
What was killing me, was it his need.
Yes, I need him, everyday of my life
Yes, this of my live is the ultimate height.
I need him besides me, I can’t stay alone
Save me from this, to heart break
I’m not for one.
my sleep
I was eyes awake but still in
slumber deep
Tears weld from my eyes
Yet no one hear my cry
People who claimed to be close
To stay far apart chose
I was so lonely, I was so hurt
Even the tears, my vision blurred.
My expression I myself couldn’t read
What was killing me, was it his need.
Yes, I need him, everyday of my life
Yes, this of my live is the ultimate height.
I need him besides me, I can’t stay alone
Save me from this, to heart break
I’m not for one.
Broken pane
My heart is that broken pane
My feelings, oh!
You have turned me insane
I call it a broken pane
‘Cause now its just a matter of
Pieces, all strewn aframe.
Why did you & how could you
Break my heart & be so anew
How could you be happy
When tears I had in my eyes
How could you look away
When sympathy I need from you
How can you leave me alone
When to always walk along,
this was the promise
made by you.
I know me you can’t forget
Without the either we can’t live
Then what is the problem you have met
Let me solve it for you, ‘cause
Without you, I can’t live.
My feelings, oh!
You have turned me insane
I call it a broken pane
‘Cause now its just a matter of
Pieces, all strewn aframe.
Why did you & how could you
Break my heart & be so anew
How could you be happy
When tears I had in my eyes
How could you look away
When sympathy I need from you
How can you leave me alone
When to always walk along,
this was the promise
made by you.
I know me you can’t forget
Without the either we can’t live
Then what is the problem you have met
Let me solve it for you, ‘cause
Without you, I can’t live.
When tears blur your vision
Those lovely nights
When I sat up & cried
It was after those fights
In which to break apart my world, you had tried
Those were the days
When I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t breathe
You had changed your ways
And up to you I could not reach
When not then, Then why now
If you couldn’t feel my sadness then
How can I be then sure of your love now
When that time you could walk past me
Not even realizing who am I
How can I be sure, than now when more
You’ll know its me & at least say a Hi!
Ok! Lets stop it here
If you want we’ll first be friends
But I won’t take it any further
‘cause I know where it ends.
It ends in all sadness
That is when you condemn your decision
You know someone’s finally slayed your eagerness
When tears blur your vision.
What I could never say!
If you ever get hand on this
Don’t bother to even go through it
Because you, don’t understand me
I’m only your responsibility.
Yes, just a responsibility
No, I don’t doubt your rearing ability
You taught me well, gave me food
But forgot to give me emotional security
You could not know what went inside me
What was my condition you couldn’t see
All you could see was my faults
And couldn’t humour my dignity
Dignity & the facts that I was an individual
I needed my own freedom to be
To be somebody who at least had an identity
I didn’t want to be papa’s girl or mama’s little doll
I wanted to be my own self
Someone Who could on her own feet take a stroll.
I wanted to stand on my feet become something
I wanted just guiding & not somebody to lead me holding my hand
I started finding friends in the world
Cause I wanted to see the harsh realities
But even in that you posed as *
& at every step of life, doubted my abilities
Always, my friendships you misunderstood
Cause me you could never understand
You put me under restrictions
& slowly out of my fists slipped the sand.
I couldn’t hold on to you
Time kept slipping away
Your place, I’ve given to wordly matters
My own path I’ve chosen, now that is my way
To get me back to you, don’t you try
Cause I have gone too far away
On my loss please don’t you cry
I wrote this down,
‘cause thisI could never say.
(Please don’t mind it, but this was what I felt & I had no other option but to detach myself.)
When I sat up & cried
It was after those fights
In which to break apart my world, you had tried
Those were the days
When I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t breathe
You had changed your ways
And up to you I could not reach
When not then, Then why now
If you couldn’t feel my sadness then
How can I be then sure of your love now
When that time you could walk past me
Not even realizing who am I
How can I be sure, than now when more
You’ll know its me & at least say a Hi!
Ok! Lets stop it here
If you want we’ll first be friends
But I won’t take it any further
‘cause I know where it ends.
It ends in all sadness
That is when you condemn your decision
You know someone’s finally slayed your eagerness
When tears blur your vision.
What I could never say!
If you ever get hand on this
Don’t bother to even go through it
Because you, don’t understand me
I’m only your responsibility.
Yes, just a responsibility
No, I don’t doubt your rearing ability
You taught me well, gave me food
But forgot to give me emotional security
You could not know what went inside me
What was my condition you couldn’t see
All you could see was my faults
And couldn’t humour my dignity
Dignity & the facts that I was an individual
I needed my own freedom to be
To be somebody who at least had an identity
I didn’t want to be papa’s girl or mama’s little doll
I wanted to be my own self
Someone Who could on her own feet take a stroll.
I wanted to stand on my feet become something
I wanted just guiding & not somebody to lead me holding my hand
I started finding friends in the world
Cause I wanted to see the harsh realities
But even in that you posed as *
& at every step of life, doubted my abilities
Always, my friendships you misunderstood
Cause me you could never understand
You put me under restrictions
& slowly out of my fists slipped the sand.
I couldn’t hold on to you
Time kept slipping away
Your place, I’ve given to wordly matters
My own path I’ve chosen, now that is my way
To get me back to you, don’t you try
Cause I have gone too far away
On my loss please don’t you cry
I wrote this down,
‘cause thisI could never say.
(Please don’t mind it, but this was what I felt & I had no other option but to detach myself.)
As love matures
As the season changes our love matures
his hands become more tense and kisses more dense
the feeling has no boundaries
as it is new n happy sensation
doubts get easily solved
and fights are all easily resolved
because the state of emotions mature
we stay together for longer durations
in each others embrace as we stay
we stay lip locked for hours together
our love matures as we stay
physical attractions becomes irrelevant
what matters is love and trust
for trust develops as we stay together
for love matures as we stay
ideas and thoughts are understood Unsaid
for the love matures as we stay
with eyes everything can be left Unsaid
with eyes everything seems already SAID
for patience and beliefs can be left Unsaid
as the yes say it all
as the season change our love matures
as the love matures as we stay
his hands become more tense and kisses more dense
the feeling has no boundaries
as it is new n happy sensation
doubts get easily solved
and fights are all easily resolved
because the state of emotions mature
we stay together for longer durations
in each others embrace as we stay
we stay lip locked for hours together
our love matures as we stay
physical attractions becomes irrelevant
what matters is love and trust
for trust develops as we stay together
for love matures as we stay
ideas and thoughts are understood Unsaid
for the love matures as we stay
with eyes everything can be left Unsaid
with eyes everything seems already SAID
for patience and beliefs can be left Unsaid
as the yes say it all
as the season change our love matures
as the love matures as we stay
In you I see forever
Warm thoughts of You fill
my mind
Sending shivers each time I
picture Your face
Comforting my soul as I
remember each moment
spent with You
Never wanting to forget
each touch
Each smell.. Each taste...
When you are not near, I
think of You and only You
Embedded in my thoughts
like an addiction
Bringing a smile to my face
Visions of US together...
Holding each other as close
as possible
Not letting go of each other
In an embrace unbreakable
my eyes move to meet Yours
Searching for my comfort
zone
In You I see forever.....
A love so complete
as I am eternally Yours
my mind
Sending shivers each time I
picture Your face
Comforting my soul as I
remember each moment
spent with You
Never wanting to forget
each touch
Each smell.. Each taste...
When you are not near, I
think of You and only You
Embedded in my thoughts
like an addiction
Bringing a smile to my face
Visions of US together...
Holding each other as close
as possible
Not letting go of each other
In an embrace unbreakable
my eyes move to meet Yours
Searching for my comfort
zone
In You I see forever.....
A love so complete
as I am eternally Yours
Beware the darkness at my core
After the fire,
softly softly falls the rain
gently soothing trickles
reliefand healing tenderness
to ease away a memory ofpain
that searing heat of
yesterday
that intense ache beyond
belief
succumbs to time and
progress:
it dissipates away
but like with trees the ring
remains
ash black embedded in new
growth
this green covering may
deceive
that everything is the same
as lush leaves and branches
soar
and a bold new love flies
forth
though warmly it is
received,
but beware the darkness at
my core .....
softly softly falls the rain
gently soothing trickles
reliefand healing tenderness
to ease away a memory ofpain
that searing heat of
yesterday
that intense ache beyond
belief
succumbs to time and
progress:
it dissipates away
but like with trees the ring
remains
ash black embedded in new
growth
this green covering may
deceive
that everything is the same
as lush leaves and branches
soar
and a bold new love flies
forth
though warmly it is
received,
but beware the darkness at
my core .....
Luck or life or fate?
I have looked to the
past and now stared it
in the face.
Seen its effect on me
all the years i felt ashamed.
Then suddenly from my
past came my present and
in a sudden turn of events
I can now see the gift
that I have been given.
Part of my past and the
sudden warmth of my present
together giving me strength
I don't posses on my own.
Luck, or Life,or Fate…
I just don't know
how it has come to be.
I only know that through the
mist of the fear
and the tears i have shed
I have finally found
the happiness I
have been searching for....
past and now stared it
in the face.
Seen its effect on me
all the years i felt ashamed.
Then suddenly from my
past came my present and
in a sudden turn of events
I can now see the gift
that I have been given.
Part of my past and the
sudden warmth of my present
together giving me strength
I don't posses on my own.
Luck, or Life,or Fate…
I just don't know
how it has come to be.
I only know that through the
mist of the fear
and the tears i have shed
I have finally found
the happiness I
have been searching for....
Eyes of an angel
eyes of an angel shine upon me
through the eyes of that angel
i wonder what they do see
do they only see hurt or maybe only pain
do they see someone without any gain?
I can't say what the feeling is inside
should I embrace it or should I hide?
Should I open my heart once more?
Will I find something good beyond this door?
the risk of life is something held dear
to not risk at all is to live without fear
to look thru ones eyes and see their soul
understanding being the only goal.
to touch your skin and smell your scent
my senses becoming warped and bent
wanting to shed the barriers and the wall
taking the first step of a very long fall
what will be is yet to be seen
soul mate, life partner , the same they do mean
holding out a hand just one last time
wanting only to make you mine
through the eyes of that angel
i wonder what they do see
do they only see hurt or maybe only pain
do they see someone without any gain?
I can't say what the feeling is inside
should I embrace it or should I hide?
Should I open my heart once more?
Will I find something good beyond this door?
the risk of life is something held dear
to not risk at all is to live without fear
to look thru ones eyes and see their soul
understanding being the only goal.
to touch your skin and smell your scent
my senses becoming warped and bent
wanting to shed the barriers and the wall
taking the first step of a very long fall
what will be is yet to be seen
soul mate, life partner , the same they do mean
holding out a hand just one last time
wanting only to make you mine
Welcome to my world
Faded memories haunt me still.
Life's a banquet, yet I can't fill.
Shattered mirrors reflect the soul,
My chameleon's secret yvil hole.
Dreams are ashes, and hopes are dust.
My guardian angel, I can't trust.
Despondent, I hear, with no choice,
From afar, that seductive voice.
Child, tell me who you used to be
and empty all your thoughts to me.
Soon, soon enough, I'll fill your void,
and seize you back, your shell destroyed.
Life's a banquet, yet I can't fill.
Shattered mirrors reflect the soul,
My chameleon's secret yvil hole.
Dreams are ashes, and hopes are dust.
My guardian angel, I can't trust.
Despondent, I hear, with no choice,
From afar, that seductive voice.
Child, tell me who you used to be
and empty all your thoughts to me.
Soon, soon enough, I'll fill your void,
and seize you back, your shell destroyed.
Forever friends
you'r my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you suported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,
its really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
Because you'll always be in my heart
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you suported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,
its really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
Because you'll always be in my heart
Show me what love is
Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
You think
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
She has me
She has me in her hold
As she crawls lightly around
The contours of my soul.
She has me by the mind,
There's no one else like her
That I could ever find.
She has me by the heart
And, so, I am drawn to her,
Even when we're apart.
She has me by the lips,
Her tongue lightly tracing,
As we touch fingertips.
She has me by the hand
And, there, she holds me close
So I cannot withstand.
She has me all alone
And, here, I finally surrender
And now I am home.
As she crawls lightly around
The contours of my soul.
She has me by the mind,
There's no one else like her
That I could ever find.
She has me by the heart
And, so, I am drawn to her,
Even when we're apart.
She has me by the lips,
Her tongue lightly tracing,
As we touch fingertips.
She has me by the hand
And, there, she holds me close
So I cannot withstand.
She has me all alone
And, here, I finally surrender
And now I am home.
Circumstance
The spaces between
These subtle glances
Marks the length between
Us and romance.
The uncertainty that stretches
Across this expanse
Takes strength to traverse
In order to advance.
The tension between us
In this moment of chance
Is the confusion of finding
Fate in happenstance.
The diminishing strides
Between these two stances
Is the inevitable force
Of our circumstance.
These subtle glances
Marks the length between
Us and romance.
The uncertainty that stretches
Across this expanse
Takes strength to traverse
In order to advance.
The tension between us
In this moment of chance
Is the confusion of finding
Fate in happenstance.
The diminishing strides
Between these two stances
Is the inevitable force
Of our circumstance.
My dream
Where the mountains touch the sky
Where poets DREAM, where eagles fly
A secret place above the crowds
Just beneath marshmallow clouds
Lift your eyes to a snowy peak
And see the soon- to- be we seek
Whisper DREAMS and let them rise
To the mountains old and wise
Climbers climb, it's time to try
Where the mountains touch the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Where the ocean meets the sky
Where mermaid dance and seagulls fly
A place in DREAMS I know so well
The sea inside a single shell
Far across the living sea
A pale blue possibility
Beyond the castles made of sand
Tomorrow in a small child's hand
Only DREAMERS need apply
Where the ocean meets the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Where the forests reach the sky
Men are equal and doves still fly
No thorns of war, a perfect rose
This is where the green grass grows
Out beyond the crystal stream
Like Dr. King I have a DREAM
Imagine such a goal in sight
For red and yellow, black and white
Whisper now, let the DREAM begin
It's time to trust the truth within
This is where we seek and find
A gift in being colorblind
Dream on Dreamers, hopes are high
Where the forests reach the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Now, listen close, the future calls
"Build your bridges and tear down walls! "
For time has taught and so it seems
Realities are born of DREAMS
Where poets DREAM, where eagles fly
A secret place above the crowds
Just beneath marshmallow clouds
Lift your eyes to a snowy peak
And see the soon- to- be we seek
Whisper DREAMS and let them rise
To the mountains old and wise
Climbers climb, it's time to try
Where the mountains touch the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Where the ocean meets the sky
Where mermaid dance and seagulls fly
A place in DREAMS I know so well
The sea inside a single shell
Far across the living sea
A pale blue possibility
Beyond the castles made of sand
Tomorrow in a small child's hand
Only DREAMERS need apply
Where the ocean meets the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Where the forests reach the sky
Men are equal and doves still fly
No thorns of war, a perfect rose
This is where the green grass grows
Out beyond the crystal stream
Like Dr. King I have a DREAM
Imagine such a goal in sight
For red and yellow, black and white
Whisper now, let the DREAM begin
It's time to trust the truth within
This is where we seek and find
A gift in being colorblind
Dream on Dreamers, hopes are high
Where the forests reach the sky
Take me there. Oh take me now
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow
Now, listen close, the future calls
"Build your bridges and tear down walls! "
For time has taught and so it seems
Realities are born of DREAMS
Goodbye
God took you away.
It doesn't seem fair,
but in the back of my mind,
you will always be there.
You weren't a close friend,
but our paths did cross,
and your absence in this world,
is to me a great loss.
You were too young to die, and
too innocent to feel that pain.
Only heaven benefits,
because you it has now gained.
I may think of you a little less
with each passing day,
but your strength is something I won't forget,
you have changed me in a way.
I wish for you eternal peace;
that's what you deserve my friend.
I hope I lead my life well enough
to meet up with you in the end.
It doesn't seem fair,
but in the back of my mind,
you will always be there.
You weren't a close friend,
but our paths did cross,
and your absence in this world,
is to me a great loss.
You were too young to die, and
too innocent to feel that pain.
Only heaven benefits,
because you it has now gained.
I may think of you a little less
with each passing day,
but your strength is something I won't forget,
you have changed me in a way.
I wish for you eternal peace;
that's what you deserve my friend.
I hope I lead my life well enough
to meet up with you in the end.
Small pain in my chest
The soldier boy was sitting calmly underneath that tree.
As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me.
The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night
And scores of figures on the ground lay still by morning's light.
"I wonder if you'd help me, sir", he smiled as best he could.
"A sip of water on this morn would surely do me good.
We fought all day and fought all night with scarcely any rest -
A sip of water for I have a small pain in my chest."
As I looked at him, I could see the large stain on his shirt
All reddish-brown from his warm blood mixed in with Asian dirt.
"Not much", said he. "I count myself more lucky than the rest.
They're all gone while I just have a small pain in my chest."
"Must be fatigue", he weakly smiled. "I must be getting old.
I see the sun is shining bright and yet I'm feeling cold.
We climbed the hill, two hundred strong, but as we cleared the crest,
The night exploded and I felt this small pain in my chest."
"I looked around to get some aid - the only things I found
Were big, deep craters in the earth - bodies on the ground.
I kept on firing at them, sir. I tried to do my best,
But finally sat down with this small pain in my chest."
"I'm grateful, sir", he whispered, as I handed my canteen
And smiled a smile that was, I think, the brightest that I've seen.
"Seems silly that a man my size so full of vim and zest,
Could find himself defeated by a small pain in his chest."
"What would my wife be thinking of her man so strong and grown,
If she could see me sitting here, too weak to stand alone?
Could my mother have imagined, as she held me to her breast,
That I'd be sitting HERE one day with this pain in my chest?"
"Can it be getting dark so soon?" He winced up at the sun.
"It's growing dim and I thought that the day had just begun.
I think, before I travel on, I'll get a little rest ..........
And, quietly, the boy died from that small pain in his chest.
I don't recall what happened then. I think I must have cried;
I put my arms around him and I pulled him to my side
And, as I held him to me, I could feel our wounds were pressed
The large one in my heart against the small one in his chest.
As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me.
The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night
And scores of figures on the ground lay still by morning's light.
"I wonder if you'd help me, sir", he smiled as best he could.
"A sip of water on this morn would surely do me good.
We fought all day and fought all night with scarcely any rest -
A sip of water for I have a small pain in my chest."
As I looked at him, I could see the large stain on his shirt
All reddish-brown from his warm blood mixed in with Asian dirt.
"Not much", said he. "I count myself more lucky than the rest.
They're all gone while I just have a small pain in my chest."
"Must be fatigue", he weakly smiled. "I must be getting old.
I see the sun is shining bright and yet I'm feeling cold.
We climbed the hill, two hundred strong, but as we cleared the crest,
The night exploded and I felt this small pain in my chest."
"I looked around to get some aid - the only things I found
Were big, deep craters in the earth - bodies on the ground.
I kept on firing at them, sir. I tried to do my best,
But finally sat down with this small pain in my chest."
"I'm grateful, sir", he whispered, as I handed my canteen
And smiled a smile that was, I think, the brightest that I've seen.
"Seems silly that a man my size so full of vim and zest,
Could find himself defeated by a small pain in his chest."
"What would my wife be thinking of her man so strong and grown,
If she could see me sitting here, too weak to stand alone?
Could my mother have imagined, as she held me to her breast,
That I'd be sitting HERE one day with this pain in my chest?"
"Can it be getting dark so soon?" He winced up at the sun.
"It's growing dim and I thought that the day had just begun.
I think, before I travel on, I'll get a little rest ..........
And, quietly, the boy died from that small pain in his chest.
I don't recall what happened then. I think I must have cried;
I put my arms around him and I pulled him to my side
And, as I held him to me, I could feel our wounds were pressed
The large one in my heart against the small one in his chest.
Differences
A week after our daughter Lauren was born, my wife Bonnie and I were completely exhausted. Each night Lauren kept waking us. Bonnie had been torn in the delivery and was taking pain killers. She could barely walk. After five days of staying home to help, I went back to work. She seemed to be getting better.
While I was away she ran out of pain pills. Instead of calling me at the office, she asked one of my brothers, who was visiting, to purchase more. My brother, however, did not return with the pills. Consequently, she spent the whole day in pain, taking care of a newborn.
I had no idea that her day had been so awful. When I returned home she was very upset. I misinterpreted the cause of her distress and thought she was blaming me.
She said, “I’ve been in pain all day…I ran out of pills. I’ve been stranded in bed and nobody cares!”
I said defensively, “Why didn’t you call me?”
She said, “I asked your brother, but he forgot! I’ve been waiting for him to return all day. What am I supposed to do? I can barely walk. I feel so deserted!”
At this point I exploded. My fuse was also very short that day. I was angry that she hadn’t called me. I was furious that she was blaming me when I didn’t even know she was in pain. After exchanging a few harsh words, I headed for the door. I was tired, irritable, and had heard enough. We had both reached our limits.
Then something started to happen that would change my life.
Bonnie said, “Stop, please don’t leave. This is when I need you the most. I’m in pain. I haven’t slept in days. Please listen to me.”
I stopped for a moment to listen.
She said, “John Gray, you’re a fair-weather friend! As long as I’m sweet, loving Bonnie you are here for me, but as soon as I’m not, you walk right out that door.”
Then she paused, and her eyes filled up with tears. As her tone shifted she said, “Right now I’m in pain. I have nothing to give; this is when I need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don’t have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please don’t go.”
I walked over and silently held her. She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her.
At that moment I started to realize the real meaning of love-unconditional love. I had always thought of myself as a loving person. But she was right. I had been a fair-weather friend. As long as she was happy and nice, I loved back. But if she was unhappy or upset, I would feel blamed and then argue or distance myself.
That day, for the first time, I didn’t leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. I marveled at how easy it was for me to support her when I was shown the way.
How had I missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. Another woman would have instinctively known what Bonnie needed. But as a man, I didn’t know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her. By recognizing these differences I began to learn a new way of relating to her. I would have never believed we could resolve conflicts so easily.
While I was away she ran out of pain pills. Instead of calling me at the office, she asked one of my brothers, who was visiting, to purchase more. My brother, however, did not return with the pills. Consequently, she spent the whole day in pain, taking care of a newborn.
I had no idea that her day had been so awful. When I returned home she was very upset. I misinterpreted the cause of her distress and thought she was blaming me.
She said, “I’ve been in pain all day…I ran out of pills. I’ve been stranded in bed and nobody cares!”
I said defensively, “Why didn’t you call me?”
She said, “I asked your brother, but he forgot! I’ve been waiting for him to return all day. What am I supposed to do? I can barely walk. I feel so deserted!”
At this point I exploded. My fuse was also very short that day. I was angry that she hadn’t called me. I was furious that she was blaming me when I didn’t even know she was in pain. After exchanging a few harsh words, I headed for the door. I was tired, irritable, and had heard enough. We had both reached our limits.
Then something started to happen that would change my life.
Bonnie said, “Stop, please don’t leave. This is when I need you the most. I’m in pain. I haven’t slept in days. Please listen to me.”
I stopped for a moment to listen.
She said, “John Gray, you’re a fair-weather friend! As long as I’m sweet, loving Bonnie you are here for me, but as soon as I’m not, you walk right out that door.”
Then she paused, and her eyes filled up with tears. As her tone shifted she said, “Right now I’m in pain. I have nothing to give; this is when I need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don’t have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please don’t go.”
I walked over and silently held her. She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her.
At that moment I started to realize the real meaning of love-unconditional love. I had always thought of myself as a loving person. But she was right. I had been a fair-weather friend. As long as she was happy and nice, I loved back. But if she was unhappy or upset, I would feel blamed and then argue or distance myself.
That day, for the first time, I didn’t leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. I marveled at how easy it was for me to support her when I was shown the way.
How had I missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. Another woman would have instinctively known what Bonnie needed. But as a man, I didn’t know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her. By recognizing these differences I began to learn a new way of relating to her. I would have never believed we could resolve conflicts so easily.
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