When tears blur your vision

Those lovely nights
When I sat up & cried
It was after those fights
In which to break apart my world, you had tried
Those were the days
When I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t breathe
You had changed your ways
And up to you I could not reach
When not then, Then why now
If you couldn’t feel my sadness then
How can I be then sure of your love now
When that time you could walk past me
Not even realizing who am I
How can I be sure, than now when more
You’ll know its me & at least say a Hi!
Ok! Lets stop it here
If you want we’ll first be friends
But I won’t take it any further
‘cause I know where it ends.
It ends in all sadness
That is when you condemn your decision
You know someone’s finally slayed your eagerness
When tears blur your vision.
What I could never say!
If you ever get hand on this
Don’t bother to even go through it
Because you, don’t understand me
I’m only your responsibility.
Yes, just a responsibility
No, I don’t doubt your rearing ability
You taught me well, gave me food
But forgot to give me emotional security
You could not know what went inside me
What was my condition you couldn’t see
All you could see was my faults
And couldn’t humour my dignity
Dignity & the facts that I was an individual
I needed my own freedom to be
To be somebody who at least had an identity
I didn’t want to be papa’s girl or mama’s little doll
I wanted to be my own self
Someone Who could on her own feet take a stroll.
I wanted to stand on my feet become something
I wanted just guiding & not somebody to lead me holding my hand
I started finding friends in the world
Cause I wanted to see the harsh realities
But even in that you posed as *
& at every step of life, doubted my abilities
Always, my friendships you misunderstood
Cause me you could never understand
You put me under restrictions
& slowly out of my fists slipped the sand.
I couldn’t hold on to you
Time kept slipping away
Your place, I’ve given to wordly matters
My own path I’ve chosen, now that is my way
To get me back to you, don’t you try
Cause I have gone too far away
On my loss please don’t you cry
I wrote this down,
‘cause thisI could never say.
(Please don’t mind it, but this was what I felt & I had no other option but to detach myself.)